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Goodbye Danny Tanner
Mourning the loss of my TV Dad
I was watching TV last night and my husband was sitting beside me scrolling on his phone. Suddenly he said “Oh no” and showed me the headline of Bob Saget passing away.
I made a comment about how that was sad, trying not to let him see how hard it hit truly hit me. I sat there a few more minutes before I finally went to the bathroom and cried.
The truth is, I’m more devastated about Bob’s passing than I would be if I heard about my own father dying.
My father had his own issues and exited my life when I was just a toddler. I was raised by my mom and her boyfriend who were extremely verbally abusive.
Watching Full House as a kid was the closest I came to being part of a happy family. It comforted me when I was screamed and cursed at for doing things like eating the last pop tart or putting my feet on the couch ( I was the only one in the house who wasn’t allowed to do that). I could watch Danny Tanner tell his kids everything was going to be okay, and in a way I felt like he was saying that to me.
I think the reason I haven’t showed my husband how devastated I am is because I would have to tell him why Bob was so important to me growing up. That’s something that’s really hard to talk about. But I felt like I really needed to express it somehow and get those emotions out. It’s easier for me to express my feelings in writing.
It doesn’t feel like a celebrity I never met died. It aches like losing a family member. Someone who helped me feel like I wasn’t alone when darkness was all around me. I know there are many people who grew up in similar situations who must feel the same way.
RIP Bob
